October Reflection
Growth in the Heavy Moments
As I sit with a cup of tea and look back on October, I can’t help but feel a mix of emotions exhaustion, gratitude, and quiet pride for getting through another month that asked a lot of me. It wasn’t easy, but it was real, raw, and full of lessons that continue to shape me.
A Month of Ups and Downs
October has been one of those months that felt like a rollercoaster full of emotions, lessons, and moments of deep reflection. It’s been heavy at times, testing me in ways that forced me to pause and look within.
There were days when I questioned almost everything my direction, my choices, even myself. I found myself wondering: Am I the problem? Am I really on the right path?
Navigating Inner Battles
This month, I’ve been working through body image struggles and trying to understand people’s behaviors. It hasn’t been easy. I’ve realized not everyone will understand your heart, your healing, or your journey and that’s okay. Sometimes, the hardest part of growth is learning to let go of what (or who) no longer aligns with your peace.
Coming to Terms with Change
Life has shifted so much for me lately. There’s a deep grief in that in accepting what’s been lost, what no longer fits, and what had to evolve. At times, it’s brought a wave of emotions I couldn’t ignore. But even in those moments, I remind myself that healing often hides in the stillness that follows the storm.
I’ve come to understand that change doesn’t always feel like progress. Sometimes it’s uncomfortable, lonely, and uncertain yet it’s still leading you somewhere beautiful.
Moments That Grounded Me
In between the heavy moments, there were pockets of light that reminded me how much love and joy still exist in my world.
I’m so grateful for the friends who have become my family those who show up, listen, and remind me I’m not alone. I had a few precious dinner dates with my grandson, and seeing him start school filled me with pride and tenderness. Those small moments mean everything.
The beach has been my safe space this month the place I go to breathe, reset, and find clarity. There’s something about the rhythm of the ocean that brings me back to myself every time.
Finding Joy in the Small Things
I was lucky enough to take a much needed holiday, to be part of a breast cancer event that reminded me of strength and sisterhood, and to spend time with my youngest daughter and my besties. Each of those moments brought connection, laughter, and grounding the things my soul needed.
What October Taught Me
As I look back on this month, I’m leaving with a few powerful reminders:
Believe in my self more. Even when doubt creeps in, trust that you’re exactly where you need to be.
Keep planting the seeds. Growth takes time stay patient and committed to what you’re building.
Be kinder to my self. Healing is not a straight line; it’s a cycle of falling apart and rebuilding stronger each time.
Moving Forward with Grace
Life isn’t easy right now. There are still days I feel uncertain and weary, but I know I’m growing through it all. The hardest seasons often become the ones that shape us the most — the ones that remind us of our resilience, our heart, and our capacity to begin again.
So, as November begins, I’m choosing to walk forward with softness, strength, and a little more self-belief.
