The Different Chapters of My Life
Looking back at 2019, I have to be honest it was one of the hardest years of my life. I was drowning, literally drowning in everything life was throwing at me. My body seemed to be working against me, with one medical condition piling on top of another. I remember those endless doctor visits, the constant worry about what might be wrong next.
And then there was that relationship... the one that dimmed my light, that made me question my worth every single day. The emotional abuse was like a slow poison, seeping into every aspect of my life. I was trying to change careers at the same time, imagine that - stepping into something new while feeling completely broken inside.
Being a mum through all of this? That was another challenge entirely. My kids needed me to be present, to be strong, but I was running on empty. I had these unhealthy coping mechanisms habits that I thought were helping me survive but were actually pulling me further down. I was unhealed, carrying wounds I hadn't even acknowledged yet.
Looking at me now in 2025, it's like I'm reading a completely different chapter of my life. My kids have all left home,empty nest syndrome hit hard, but it gave me space to focus on myself. It's been four years since I finally found the strength to leave my abuser. Four years of rebuilding, of rediscovering who I am without that dark cloud hanging over me.
I've built something I'm proud of an online presence where I can connect with others, share my story, maybe help someone who's where I used to be. I've replaced those unhealthy habits with habits that actually help me, that make me stronger. The journey of healing from trauma? It's ongoing, but I'm navigating it with more grace now, more understanding.
The most beautiful part? I'm finally at peace. Not just surviving, but actually living. Those medical conditions that used to control my life? I've learned to manage them, to work with my body instead of against it. Sometimes I look in the mirror and barely recognize the strong woman staring back at me - but in the best possible way.
The difference between then and now isn't just about time passing. It's about the choices I made, the boundaries I set, and the healing I committed to. From chaos to peace, from survival to thriving this is my story of transformation, and it's still being written.
