June Reflection
It feels like just yesterday I reflected on May, and now I find myself writing about June. The month began positively, as I explored nature and met new people, but I ended up recovering from being quite unwell by the end of the month.
Lessons Learned
June has taught me that everyone you encounter in life can be either temporary or permanent. Some people resemble vultures, driven by their own egos. This month, I felt somewhat lost; my mental health was challenging, and I sensed that certain people were placed in my path as tests. It was my responsibility to figure whether they were good or bad influences. Unfortunately, I faced some hard lessons and made poor choices, often recognizing that I was in a difficult space.
No one ever claimed this journey would be easy, nor that making mistakes was inherently negative. Looking back, I see these experiences as signs of personal growth. They reveal what I won’t tolerate in life, the unacceptable behavior I refuse to endure, and that some individuals simply don’t deserve a role in my next chapter or my future.
The Triggers
No matter how much healing ive accomplished or are currently engaged in, those experiences are integral to my story. The focus should be on how to cope with and work through them; they do not dictate your life. Regardless of the people I meet or the places I visit, I am learning to accept that I may be triggered by certain behaviors—and that's perfectly okay. It’s not always convenient, and at times it can be quite annoying.
I struggle when being yelled at or when someone's voice is raised.
I feel uneasy when I believe I've let someone down,
when I think I've made a mistake,
or when I observe specific behaviors that unsettle me.
I view my triggers as lessons—indications of the parts of me that are still healing, highlighting what I refuse to accept in my life. I am discovering my voice and standing firm for what resonates with me now. I understand that there is no set timeline; it’s simply about healing and navigating my journey as I go along.
Gratitude
I am grateful for the moments I never imagined I would experience—the times when sitting on the beach feels effortlessly simple, beautiful, and serene. For a long time, I struggled to simply sit on a beach and embrace the present. I never realized how much I would come to cherish watching a morning sunrise or a sunset, and the beauty of those moments. The vibrant colors, the melodies of birds, and the feeling of getting lost in time allow me to forget everything, even if just for a little while.
What opportunities await me in July? What places will I discover, and which people will I encounter? Thank you, June, for the adventures and valuable lessons.