Monthly Reflections - 2024
January
Just a week ago, I was in a hospital bed; today, I'm enjoying a beautiful sunrise over Auckland City.
In moments like these, I feel truly grateful for the ability to wake up and enjoy such experiences. Life is quite unpredictable for me right now.
One day I'm walking steadily, the next I'm unsteady on my feet.
One day my vision is clear, with only minor glitches, and the next it's completely blurred.
One day I can engage in a normal conversation, while the next I struggle to speak coherently.
One day I can function without any issues, but the next I find myself confined to bed.
One day I'm able to drive, and the next it's completely out of the question.
This is my current reality; each glimmer, adventure, sunset I experience, and sunrise I witness offers me another day to appreciate the small joys in life.Despite the unpredictability of my condition, I find solace in these simple moments that remind me of life's beauty.Each sunrise is a promise of new beginnings, while every sunset marks a day well-lived, filled with gratitude and reflection.
The adventures I embark on, no matter how small, serve as reminders of my strength and determination to keep moving forward, embracing the unknown. Whether it's a walk in nature, a drive to the beach, or a quiet evening with a friend, these are the things that ground me and give me hope.
Every glimmer of joy is a testament to my journey a journey that has taught me the importance of living mindfully and cherishing the present. As I navigate through the challenges, I am continually inspired to find beauty in the everyday, to see past the struggles, and to celebrate the wins, however small they may be.
Through it all, I am learning to let go of what I cannot control and to embrace the life I have with gratitude and grace. This journey is uniquely mine, filled with lessons, growth, and endless possibilities. Each day is a gift, a chance to create memories, and to live a life that is authentically and beautifully my own.
February
February was a time for me to prepare for March and gradually ease back into my routine after surgery, which had put everything on pause. Here are some highlights from my month:
I embarked on a journey to become a Reiki practitioner.
I started a new yoga class this year while still attending sessions with my previous instructor, seeking a fresh perspective.
I cherished moments spent with my grandson.
I found myself at a crossroads, grappling with the desire to hold onto parts of my past while recognizing that healing requires letting go of what no longer serves me. A conversation with a friend helped me realize that I needed to break free from my dependence on weed, which, although it had been a source of pain relief, was also tied to a darker chapter in my life. Since making this change, I’ve experienced greater clarity and well-being.
I also had to cancel some subscriptions to people who were not contributing positively to my life, and I set boundaries that I sometimes found challenging to maintain.
Throughout this healing process, I’ve learned that not everyone will support my transformation. Some people have revealed their true colors, and I’ve become less tolerant of how I allow myself to be treated. I’m learning to listen to my body’s needs, prioritizing rest and embracing quieter days instead of pushing myself as I once did.
As another season of my life changes, another begins, much like the transition from summer to autumn, with leaves changing from vibrant green to earthy brown and mornings becoming cooler.
My intentions for this month are:
Continue pursuing my dreams.
Prioritize my health by committing to rest and exercise.
Stay organized with my diary and to-do lists.
Spend more time in nature and foster connections with others.
Be grateful for the opportunities that come my way.
I'm uncertain about what March has in store for me, but I do know that I need to trust the journey and choose a direction rather than remain stuck at the crossroads.
March
March has been adventure alright as i reflect my life has been like autumn for me so many changes and letting go of things.
Autumn is a time for reflection, much like those periods in our lives. It allows us to slow down, to contemplate life as we watch leaves transform and then gently fall to the ground. This season reminds us of the beauty that can be found in letting go, encouraging us to release old habits or thoughts that no longer serve us, much like trees shedding their leaves. It's a natural cycle of renewal and regeneration, suggesting that after every period of loss or change, there is the potential for new growth and beginnings, even if it may not feel it.
I have found some essential insights regarding my current situation and the future direction of my life. What astonishes me is how the body reacts to trauma, the complexity of the healing process, adjusting to a new diagnosis, and realizing the importance of making changes and allowing the body sufficient rest to recuperate and stabilize.
After being completely ignored for 5 months and feeling neglected despite our 2-year relationship, I was able to move on and close that chapter in my life. It made me realize my self-worth and understand that this person is too absorbed in their own world to see beyond themselves. I cannot force people to change or see their actions, as they may live in a fantasy. This experience has shed light on the dating world; it's time to let go of the Disney fairy tale and face the reality. We've been misled by an unrealistic portrayal of relationships and love. Encountering a lack of respect and values, alongside smooth talkers who reveal their true colors, has been an eye-opening journey.
Men we dont want to see your willy before your even said hello,
Men what on earth is wrong with your commuincation have you forgotton to use words
Men instead of ghosting just be straight up with your intentions and be twat waffle
Men if you want a hook up dont act like prince charming, say all the right stuff and boom your turned into the next douchebag
Men if you dont like curves dont act like you do and then make a complete dick of your self and say other
Men how on earth do you get to know someone f you have inbox full of other women
Men what happened to good ole fashion dating, and acting like a man not a hornbag for once
Just spillin' the tea here! It's not just me - who would've guessed Snapchat could turn into the new Tinder, right? I mean, imagine getting banned for keeping it real on Tinder that ws me! Dating these days is like a wild ride at the supermarket, going through the pick and mix asile - you never know what you're gonna get!
I am in the process of reimagining how I approach both business and life to manage more good days and fewer unpredictable ones that I have grown accustomed to handling. Reflecting on my first market experience, numerous business opportunities, and encounters with inspiring individuals in Juice Plus, along with crazy adventures, a first date, and attending a concert to see my favorite bands, March has been full of memorable experiences. Embracing the autumn seasons of life offers a profound journey of self-discovery and personal development. Just like the vibrant colors of autumn, these phases in our lives are rich with potential and valuable lessons if we are willing to embrace the range of emotions and insights they bring. Ultimately, similar to the cycle of seasons, our lives follow a cyclical path, where after every autumn, the promise of spring emerges with new beginnings and possibilities.