Hit With Exhaustion

You know that feeling when exhaustion hits you like a ton of bricks? Not just the physical kind, but the bone-deep, soul-crushing kind. That's where I found myself, staring at my reflection, realizing my whole life had been built on a carefully constructed lie.

There's nothing quite like the moment you discover just how ugly people can be. The masks come off, and suddenly those you trusted show their true colors. It's a special kind of hurt. Like when I can't even locate my estranged dad's ashes, how im painted as a villian, its just another reminder of how messy and complicated life can get.

We're all chasing this idea of closure That magical moment when everything makes sense and the pain just... stops. But here's the truth bomb I had to swallow: sometimes closure doesn't come. And you know what? That's part of life too.

I've learned something important through all this - it's perfectly okay not to be okay. There's no shame in admitting you're struggling. Some days, I'm juggling multiple health conditions like a dam circus performer who never signed up for the job. It's exhausting - mentally, emotionally, physically - every part of me just wants to wave the white flag.

Healing: it's messy. Really messy. It's not this beautiful, Instagram-worthy journey where you meditate once and suddenly everything's fixed. It's more like trying to solve a puzzle in the dark, with half the pieces missing.

Yet somehow, we keep going. We have to find our reasons - maybe it's the morning coffee that tastes just right, or that one friend who texts to check in, or even just spite (hey, whatever works, right?). Sometimes our biggest wins are simply making it through another day.

The war inside doesn't end with some grand battle. It's more like a series of small daily negotiations with yourself. And while some days feel like you're losing, remember this: you're still here, still fighting, still moving forward - even if it's just inch by inch. That counts for something.

Remember, warriors aren't just the ones who win every battle - they're the ones who keep showing up, even when they're tired, even when it's hard, even when they don't want to. That's you. That's all of us, fighting our own wars inside.